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sandy_too_talL

- Name: sandy
- Birthday: 10/28/1988
- Member Since: 3/22/2003

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"our eyes are placed in front because it is more important to look ahead than to look back."

People are busy looking at the past. Looking at what they have achieved, haven't achieved…
Their regrets. Their What Ifs and What Could Have Been... Its only because the past has already pasts... and its more comfortable to look at things that already happened then looking at things that hasn't happened yet. People need to start looking ahead, to the unknown. To be afraid of the future is like having no confidence in your self. So take the courage of lifting your head up high and face the future bold and proud. Cause anything’s possible if you have faith.

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Friday, 20 June 2008

Whats Underneath The Masks?

Everyone wears a mask
Whether to be someone they want to be...
Whether to hide a secret
Whether because they're too scared to show the real them..
maybe they just don't like the person they are so they try and be someone else...
whatever the reason.. everyones wearing one. Me? I wear a mask that only allows people to see what I want them to see. I try and conceal my flaws, I like to please people... and generally tell them what they want to hear. I don't let people see my dark side, but always the bright side. I care what other thinks... but then again I don't. I care what I think others see me as… if that even makes sense. More importantly, I care how my family sees me as. I hate to disappoint.

Like i said... everyone wears a mask. Most wears theirs so much they get lost and lose who they once were and forgotten why they wore it in the first place. But I guess thats what change means. Some become the mask they wore and puts on other. Change is not a bad thing… its how you go about that change that determines its status. It’s rare for that mask to come off in front of someone else and not just in the mirror... well depending on how well they trust.

It's hard for me to show my true self, I think. Friend wise, I can count on one hand that can honestly say they know me. It’s not that I'm a horrible person or anything like that. When you first meet me, first impression is usually who I am. The general Gist of me, anyway. I guess to show someone the 100% me is showing them my heart, my soul... and if I let someone see me without any armor, any shield, all guards are down to the point where I'm vulnerable with no where to hide… that person can break me to no repair.

Why did this subject come about in the first place? I'm not that sure... I guess its cause of all this babysitting that allowed me to think more. I'm scared to be the full me and I sometimes don't even know who I am. Still in that stage of figuring it out I guess. I don't know how to please myself cause I'm scared of disappointing others. I don't know if I can handle being disappointed in myself. I don't know where I stand or who I should stand up with. I DON'T KNOW HOW TO LET GO.

So I guess this mask stays on till i figure it out.

"you might regret what you do
but you'll regret what you don't do so much more…
be more concerned about your character than your reputation because your character is who you are, and your reputation is what others think of you.>